There are several people who have hurt me. Most are people who I have allowed to get close to me.
It's because of their transgressions that I have a hard time trusting people...
What I would say to Matthew is, you are the worst kind of human. The ones people have memes and videos about on how to avoid. A true narcissist that I regret wasting time on. However, I learned lesson whether I wanted to or not.
What I would say to Krystal, Jessica and Imani, did out friendship mean nothing to you? The fact that I did so much for you and you gave me your ass to kiss? I was there for you all when the world had other places. Hyped you up and tried to make you feel good. While, you ignored, shunned and overlooked me. I regret wasting my time on you all too.
What I would say to Khadijah, I'm so sorry to myself for letting a dumb banana-head like you interrupt my big day. Thank God you couldn't take my education or diploma. I know I made a big mistake that I regret sometimes but fuck you-seriously.
What I would say to my mom, there has so many times when I needed you to protect me and yet you stood by idly. Even now I don't know whether I can trust you or not. I have so many scars because you. You're one of the reasons why I can't trust anymore.
What I would say to my sister/siblings, I appreciate you being there for me. However, you don't own me or my time. More importantly, I don't owe you anything.
What I would say to my dad, why couldn't you just admit that you didn't want kids. You enjoyed the pleasure of the act but couldn't handle the consequences of the aftermath- kids. I have always wanted to be a daddy's girl and the fact that I could not have that due to you incapacity to love hurts..
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